Sometimes it’s hard to transfer my swirling brain into the written word. Eric has this funny gesture that he does when he’s poking fun of my overactive mind. Picture him making buzzing noises as he motions electricity coming out of his head. He knows all too well that I’m often unable to quiet my mind. Writing has been challenging lately because life has changed so much and it’s been hard to focus with so many things going on. Then there is the sleep deprivation which isn’t always conducive to making coherent sentences. I always ask Eric what I can write about and he always says, write about how you can’t think of anything to write about. God, he’s so logical…ha.
Creative writing was always my favourite thing in school, next to gym class. My mom often digs up stories I wrote as a child and sends them to me. My writing was so free and filled with zany, creative tales. I never worried if I was saying the “right” thing or if others would like it. I owned that shit. In highschool, I eagerly signed up for a creative writing class with my awesome English teacher, Mr. Pierce. We each made our own creative writing journal. Mine was a huge coiled notebook (I think I splurged on the “fancy” Five Star notebook!) filled with random scraps of inspirational words pasted onto the pages and stories confessing the things I had been struggling with or triumphing over. I wrote about love and heartbreak, a cross country move with my mom, missing my best friend, and starting my last year of highschool in a new school. I wrote about my anxiety and struggles with body image. I wrote and wrote and wrote my little heart out; the words came easily because I knew that my teacher would be the only one reading. It was like therapy. Each week, his encouraging comments scribbled below each entry lifted me up. Sometimes he would ask us to share a bit of what we wrote with our classmates and I would freeze up, rarely ever volunteering, even though I could see him glancing my way out of the corner of my eye. Writing freely for yourself is one thing, but being vulnerable and sharing it with others takes guts. Heck, even writing honestly for your own eyes takes guts.
Even after 6 years of blogging and consistent daily writing, I still struggle with the debilitating feeling that my words don’t matter or what I have to say isn’t worth sharing. Isn’t it funny how we can defeat ourselves before even trying? Brain, stop that! I miss the freedom with writing that I felt so many years ago in my creative writing class.
When I started this blog I wrote as if I was writing in my journal. After all, no one was reading so I didn’t think about it much. As the blog grew, I started to overthink every word I wrote because I felt eyes looking over my shoulder as I typed. Would this offend someone…does this sound preachy…will I inadvertently destroy a young and impressionable human being? I’m being dramatic, but you get the idea. This type of thinking stifles every creative bone in the body. It’s definitely a good thing to be aware of others, but it’s a fine line and it’s easy to lose yourself. I think we’ve all been there whether it’s with writing or in real life situations. It’s funny though, since writing my pregnancy and baby blog posts, I’ve actually felt a renewed freedom in my writing again and I’ve even had readers take notice and comment on it. I love writing those weekly posts mostly because I feel like I’m writing in my journal again. It’s helped me bring back the me in my writing.
So. I’ve decided that I want to write more freely and in spite of fear. I don’t think that fear when sharing personal writing will ever go away (sharing takes guts, and always will), but I do think I can forge ahead anyway. I love connecting with YOU; it’s what ignited my passion for blogging in the first place (way back in 2008). What helped me write this post was just sitting down at the computer one night and letting my thoughts hit the paper (err…keyboard). No censoring myself, just writing freely. It felt good!
Having a daughter has made me think a lot about the lessons I want to teach her some day (gulp!), and encouraging Adriana to speak her truth is high on my list. I want her to be BRAVE and raise her hand and share her stories! And not just share her stories, but to feel like her words are worth sharing. That is so, so huge. To know that you are worth it. But I know that I have to practice what I preach and show her there is strength in vulnerability, in taking risks, and being true to who you are.
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Raw Chocolate Pudding
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3 servings
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This raw, completely natural, no-sugar-added banana cacao almond butter pudding will make your heart skip a beat! It won't give you a sugar crash either. I expect that kids will love this recipe too. If you don't have raw cacao powder you can try using unsweetened cocoa powder, although you will likely have to adjust the amount to taste. I recommend adding it 1 tablespoon at a time and taste testing as you go. Roasted almond butter would also work lovely. And because I will probably be asked - the banana flavour does come through quite a bit in this pudding. Recipe adapted from Green Kitchen Stories, which was adapted from the Kernesund Familie cookbook.
Ingredients
For the pudding:
- 3 medium bananas, peeled (see note)
- 1/2 medium avocado, pitted (see note)
- 1/4 cup smooth raw almond butter
- 4-5 tablespoons raw cacao powder, or to taste
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- pinch of pink Himalayan salt or fine sea salt
Optional toppings:
- Coconut Whipped Cream (recipe linked in notes below)
- 1/4 cup hazelnuts, toasted and chopped
- Raspberry chia seed jam (recipe linked in notes below)
- Pomegranate arils
Directions
- Add all pudding ingredients into a food processor and process until smooth, stopping to scrape down the sides of the bowl as needed. I like to let the machine run for a couple minutes to get it super smooth.
- Portion the pudding into a container and chill in the fridge for an hour or so. Or you can serve it right away with the recommended toppings. Best enjoyed within 12-24 hours or so.
Tip:
Tips: 1) You want to avoid using overly ripe, brown bananas in this recipe or the banana flavour will overwhelm. Yellow with a few spots is best. 2) If you want an "instant" cold pudding, refrigerate the bananas and avocado prior to making this pudding. 3) For the coconut whipped cream recipe, see here. 4) For toasted hazelnuts, roast the nuts at 300F for 10-14 minutes until the skins start to fall off the nuts. Place toasted nuts in an old tea towel and rub vigorously to remove the skins. 5) For my Raspberry Chia Seed Jam recipe, see here. 6) I don't recommend using an avocado that is bruised as it will be bitter. A soft, but still green, avocado is perfect for this recipe.
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Angela this post is incredible! Your words DO matter! They are motivating me to be my healthiest and best everyday. The recipes and experiences you share are tremendously valuable to me as a stay at home momma with two little ones. Don’t ever listen to the “committee” in your head that says “no”, instead listen to your heart, it is more likely to say “yes, you can.”
As for this recipe, I just made it for the first time and can’t believe THIS is vegan! I can see this becoming a favorite of my husband. Thanks for sharing this amazing recipe! :) now I can have my chocolate fix without too much guilt.
Angela,
I LOVE this post. First, the recipe looks amazing (obviously!), but I really appreciate your vulnerability and expressing fears. I have just recently started blogging and can so relate to facing fears over every post and every word. I finally shared my blog on Facebook, and was terrified of what people I know might think. It was shared to family and friends I haven’t talked to in years. I kept thinking, “what will they think of me?!) in fear. Then finally, I thought the point of my blog is to be authentic. I’ve got nothing to hide, and so what if they think less of me for sharing any struggles. It helps to know even big bloggers (like you) still come across those fears. You are so inspiring!
I can relate to what you wrote so much! I think it took me 2 months to finally share my blog with family and friends. turns out all the worry was in my head. Glad you did too.
This is going to be our special Valentine’s Day treat (my son and husband will LOVE it) and I plan on making it for our next special occasion big family meal. It looks delicious, simple and so so healthy. Thank you for this latest!
PS Creative writing was, and is, still my favourite thing. Having a child does make it harder to get in more writing time though:)
I wanted to tell you that your words do matter. I started reading your blog shortly after you started, I too had a food blog, but as my photography progressed I chose to make a new blog that focused on photography. Unfortunately, I stifled my writing once I made that new blog, I wanted to sell my prints, so I told myself not to get too personal. I didn’t want to jeopardize a sale. The idea of trying to make ‘perfect’ photos coupled with stifled writing, I was putting too much pressure on getting it ‘right’. I actually walked away from it all for a few months, it wasn’t fun anymore.
Then in October I went to Geek Girl Con in Seattle and it ignited my creative juices, I started writing again, I enjoyed taking photos again. And I have to say, that it is you I think of when I start to think about stifling my writing again. Because I pre-ordered your cookbook, not ‘in spite’ of you sharing your life, but *because* of it. Your openness made me *want* to order your book, so I shouldn’t be afraid of being myself because it might hurt my sales… that’s just silly.
So yes, your words matter. You are a beacon of inspiration for me and many others. Keep being you.
This is so touching Nic…thank you! I am off to check out your website :)
This looks incredibly yummy! I can’t wait to give this a try!
Wow this looks divine!! Your photos are always so gorgeous, you make me want to make recipes I would usually be so intimidated by! Your blog is beautiful :)
This looks so delicious and so healthy.. I wanna try this for weekend too <3
I just have to ask — were you in the Halton school board for that class with Mr. Pierce? My creative writing teacher was Mr. Pierce — he was awesome — at MDHS. That was….(oh dear….this is painful) in…um….1993. I recently bought your cookbook and it is wonderful. Besides the awesome recipes, I often look through it just to look at it. You are very talented!
I’m sorry if this posts twice…I’m having some internet issues :)
Yes it sounds like the same teacher as I went to MDHS as well. Thanks for your kind words about my cookbook!
Just wanted to encourage you to keep writing. I have been an avid follower of your blog for many years but never commented before. I love your recipes and own your cookbook and enjoy your baby blogs as it reminds me so much of my time with own babies who are now Tweens – it goes so fast! And I always enjoy your ‘voice’, that personal style that is just you. I appreciate your bravery and time for us out here in cyberspace. Thanks for the connection through great food and shared stories. Have a great weekend.
Your words about writing ring so true! I find that the longer I blog, the more frequently I bump into writer’s block, fear, and doubt. All those pesty “what ifs” pop up and they can be a bit paralyzing in terms of getting thoughtful, heartfelt words onto the screen/page. I love that you’re pushing to bring journal-style back. Your words are always so meaningful and easy to relate to, and I look forward to reading them!
Doesn’t it just irk you to no end when your husbands ultra obvious advice is sooooo right! =) your writing is wonderful. your pictures + recipes are wonderful. and your life is wonderful. LOVE reading every word!!
yes he’s rarely clouded by emotions…haha
Thank you for this post Angela! I sent this to my mother who was lamenting about cutting out sweets to lower her cholesterol. I think this will be a perfect dessert for her when she needs to satisfy a sweet tooth craving, as both avocados and raw nuts are great for boosting that good cholesterol and lowering the bad cholesterol!
Seriously, I love it, when bloggers share the background stories behind the blogs. Especially after being such a long-time reader, I find it really bonding with your readers-so no worries! There is so much work to do on the blog and so many things that poeple don’t see that bloggers actually do! -I can imagine, really, after years of dreaming about it, I am starting mine. And it’s tough…:D sooo much clicking, thinking, planning. It’s a whole journey! I should make that pudding soon enough, it looks amazing! I really adore your photography skills Angela!
Just wanted to say hi and how much I love all of your recipes on your page.
I am not a strict vegan, but just love exploring different cooking and eating styles for me and my family.
But I particularly loved reading this post, as it reflects so many of my fears and doubts about writing. So you know, your writing inspires and motivates many I am sure!
Alex
This is the best food. I love it. but i have a question. Hows the taste if youre not give the sugar ? can i change the fruits with banana or other fruits who have sweet taste like sugar ?
Beautiful post!! This has inspired me to get more creative with my writing as well. Thank you for that!! And for the delicious recipe as well!
I come here for the very first time, it’s an amazing place for vegan as me.
Hi Angela,
This is slightly off-topic… !! I was checking out your instagram account and I wondered where those gorgeous wooden and silver serving spoons are from??!! Thank-you for all the beauty (and good food!) you provide everyday through your blog, instagram, cookbook, etc.!
Hi Sandy, They are from Anthropologie a year or so ago :)
Thank you for the amazing recipe ideas! We used this one on a recent writing about heart health. Chocolate would not be so healthy without the proper care that you have shown it!
http://omunchi.com/chocolate-love-goodness-heart/
Hey Angela!
I’ve been following you for years – and I was so proud (not that you need ‘me’ to be proud, lol) of your recipe book when it came out! I felt kind of special because I was kind of with you from the beginning – though I don’t comment a lot :)
I resonate with this latest post – about writing freely, without hindrances. I am encouraged by your words and will do the same – get back to my journal-type of writing. You keep going girl – true passion oozes out of the soul and cannot be denied nor quenched. I am so thrilled for all you have achieved! Keep being you!