Sometimes it’s hard to transfer my swirling brain into the written word. Eric has this funny gesture that he does when he’s poking fun of my overactive mind. Picture him making buzzing noises as he motions electricity coming out of his head. He knows all too well that I’m often unable to quiet my mind. Writing has been challenging lately because life has changed so much and it’s been hard to focus with so many things going on. Then there is the sleep deprivation which isn’t always conducive to making coherent sentences. I always ask Eric what I can write about and he always says, write about how you can’t think of anything to write about. God, he’s so logical…ha.
Creative writing was always my favourite thing in school, next to gym class. My mom often digs up stories I wrote as a child and sends them to me. My writing was so free and filled with zany, creative tales. I never worried if I was saying the “right” thing or if others would like it. I owned that shit. In highschool, I eagerly signed up for a creative writing class with my awesome English teacher, Mr. Pierce. We each made our own creative writing journal. Mine was a huge coiled notebook (I think I splurged on the “fancy” Five Star notebook!) filled with random scraps of inspirational words pasted onto the pages and stories confessing the things I had been struggling with or triumphing over. I wrote about love and heartbreak, a cross country move with my mom, missing my best friend, and starting my last year of highschool in a new school. I wrote about my anxiety and struggles with body image. I wrote and wrote and wrote my little heart out; the words came easily because I knew that my teacher would be the only one reading. It was like therapy. Each week, his encouraging comments scribbled below each entry lifted me up. Sometimes he would ask us to share a bit of what we wrote with our classmates and I would freeze up, rarely ever volunteering, even though I could see him glancing my way out of the corner of my eye. Writing freely for yourself is one thing, but being vulnerable and sharing it with others takes guts. Heck, even writing honestly for your own eyes takes guts.
Even after 6 years of blogging and consistent daily writing, I still struggle with the debilitating feeling that my words don’t matter or what I have to say isn’t worth sharing. Isn’t it funny how we can defeat ourselves before even trying? Brain, stop that! I miss the freedom with writing that I felt so many years ago in my creative writing class.
When I started this blog I wrote as if I was writing in my journal. After all, no one was reading so I didn’t think about it much. As the blog grew, I started to overthink every word I wrote because I felt eyes looking over my shoulder as I typed. Would this offend someone…does this sound preachy…will I inadvertently destroy a young and impressionable human being? I’m being dramatic, but you get the idea. This type of thinking stifles every creative bone in the body. It’s definitely a good thing to be aware of others, but it’s a fine line and it’s easy to lose yourself. I think we’ve all been there whether it’s with writing or in real life situations. It’s funny though, since writing my pregnancy and baby blog posts, I’ve actually felt a renewed freedom in my writing again and I’ve even had readers take notice and comment on it. I love writing those weekly posts mostly because I feel like I’m writing in my journal again. It’s helped me bring back the me in my writing.
So. I’ve decided that I want to write more freely and in spite of fear. I don’t think that fear when sharing personal writing will ever go away (sharing takes guts, and always will), but I do think I can forge ahead anyway. I love connecting with YOU; it’s what ignited my passion for blogging in the first place (way back in 2008). What helped me write this post was just sitting down at the computer one night and letting my thoughts hit the paper (err…keyboard). No censoring myself, just writing freely. It felt good!
Having a daughter has made me think a lot about the lessons I want to teach her some day (gulp!), and encouraging Adriana to speak her truth is high on my list. I want her to be BRAVE and raise her hand and share her stories! And not just share her stories, but to feel like her words are worth sharing. That is so, so huge. To know that you are worth it. But I know that I have to practice what I preach and show her there is strength in vulnerability, in taking risks, and being true to who you are.
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Raw Chocolate Pudding
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3 servings
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This raw, completely natural, no-sugar-added banana cacao almond butter pudding will make your heart skip a beat! It won't give you a sugar crash either. I expect that kids will love this recipe too. If you don't have raw cacao powder you can try using unsweetened cocoa powder, although you will likely have to adjust the amount to taste. I recommend adding it 1 tablespoon at a time and taste testing as you go. Roasted almond butter would also work lovely. And because I will probably be asked - the banana flavour does come through quite a bit in this pudding. Recipe adapted from Green Kitchen Stories, which was adapted from the Kernesund Familie cookbook.
Ingredients
For the pudding:
- 3 medium bananas, peeled (see note)
- 1/2 medium avocado, pitted (see note)
- 1/4 cup smooth raw almond butter
- 4-5 tablespoons raw cacao powder, or to taste
- 1 teaspoon pure vanilla extract
- pinch of pink Himalayan salt or fine sea salt
Optional toppings:
- Coconut Whipped Cream (recipe linked in notes below)
- 1/4 cup hazelnuts, toasted and chopped
- Raspberry chia seed jam (recipe linked in notes below)
- Pomegranate arils
Directions
- Add all pudding ingredients into a food processor and process until smooth, stopping to scrape down the sides of the bowl as needed. I like to let the machine run for a couple minutes to get it super smooth.
- Portion the pudding into a container and chill in the fridge for an hour or so. Or you can serve it right away with the recommended toppings. Best enjoyed within 12-24 hours or so.
Tip:
Tips: 1) You want to avoid using overly ripe, brown bananas in this recipe or the banana flavour will overwhelm. Yellow with a few spots is best. 2) If you want an "instant" cold pudding, refrigerate the bananas and avocado prior to making this pudding. 3) For the coconut whipped cream recipe, see here. 4) For toasted hazelnuts, roast the nuts at 300F for 10-14 minutes until the skins start to fall off the nuts. Place toasted nuts in an old tea towel and rub vigorously to remove the skins. 5) For my Raspberry Chia Seed Jam recipe, see here. 6) I don't recommend using an avocado that is bruised as it will be bitter. A soft, but still green, avocado is perfect for this recipe.
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This was such a wonderful post. As one commenter said, I came for the recipes but stayed for the personality you bring to it. Whether you are talking about something funny that happened to you (Booby Tube, I’m lookin’ at you!) or Adriana’s growth or your quirky cat Sketchie, I love finding out what new adventure, achievement, or kitchen mishap happens next; each post feels like a new chapter in a book I am reading.
I can also relate to your over thinking anxieties when it comes to writing something for others to read. Whether it’s writing a comment on your blog or writing a text, I’ll reread it many times and question if anything I said can be taken one way or another. I can assure you it will take me 5 minutes or more to proofread this comment and decide whether it sounds okay and if I should reword something haha.
As for the recipe, it looks delish and I cannot wait to make it!
Thank you Anna, that means a lot!
I am so glad you published your comment. I can totally relate to the commenting thing. I feel that way when commenting on other blogs sometimes!
Knowing a bit of your story/past, I know Adriana is really, really lucky to have you as a mom. I hope you know that. This chocolate pudding looks absolutely divine though! I love looking through your chocolate recipes this time of year–you have such a good vegan Valentine’s collection! (Oh and I also made your latest caesar salad recipe–that dressing is unreal!)
So glad you liked the salad…it’s a fav in this house!
And thanks for your kind words. :)
I’m just starting a free-writing practice and it’s doing wonders for me. Therapy indeed! This recipe looks heavenly. I can’t wait to give this a go!
This is beautiful! Be who you are! Your authenticity comes across, and it feels like reading a message from a friend. Don’t ever feel afraid of that, you’re wonderful. Of course, you share the most wonderful recipes also! Your blog is the one I most recommend to friends looking for vegan meals, and they always love it.
This couldn’t be more perfect! It’s freezing outside and I have all the ingredients, chocolate pudding here I come.
For me finding one’s voice in writing does not come naturally and it is all because of what you mentioned: the fear! Which is kind of funny when I’m doing my thing as a musician I’m not afraid to put it all out there, but on the blogosphere things feel different.
Clearly this post resonates with more than just me, once again I’m learning how similar we all are.
Looks delicious Angela – love the creaminess!
Hi
This is not about this recipe but I didn’t know where else to write! I just read your interview in publishers weekly about the 2016 book which made me really excited. As you think about recipes, any chance you can have a section of no oil low fat ones? Just hoping!!! I sure hope you get to read this email as having an infant takes up a lot of time!
Hi Lani, Glad you saw the interview! I have yet to see it, so I’m going to look for it soon.
As for no oil or low fat, I am not currently planning on having a separate section for those, but I will definitely indicate when a recipe is oil-free at the top of the recipe. I’ll think of other ideas too.
This looks so amazing, I tried your vegan chocolate cake and icing recipe the other day and it was very well received, so I’ll definitely be trying this.
Angela, do you want me to send you the link about the interview? It was great..and I am sure your fans would enjoy it!
Thank you for including some words about writing! I have been taking a creative writing class in which we have to write and share in the same class. Its terrifying! Thank you for saying it takes bravery, I agree that it does but it makes me feel better to hear someone I admire say it. I aspire to write a novel one day.
I also want to just let you know how much this blog has meant to me. It has really helped me be good to my body and stay true to my convictions of eating well and animal/cruelty free. Whenever I can I recommend the site and also the recipes. Its truly made a big impact on my life.
I LOVE this I discovered your blog about a few weeks ago, and I have made so much from it already. Everything has been to die for, I rant and rave about you to all my co-workers and clients. I have been vegetarian almost 6 months now and the past month have been full on vegan and I am loving it, I cannot tell you how it’s changed my life. Thank you so much for all the ideas and recipes and inspiration.
Peace and Love
-Daneza
I struggle with this too! I always think ‘Is this what people want to read? Am I being crazy?’ But really, people love it best when you are just who you are!
Looks delicious! You combined all my fave foods <3
This looks so delicious! I’m definitely going to make this tomorrow mmm x
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Beautifully written, and you have a beautiful story to share. I too had many of those same worries as I began my blog and simultaneously began to explore who I really was inside, and now as I take the plunge in the the world of heath coaching and running a food business I still keep thinking that someone will find out I am a fraud… but I am doing it regardless, it the only way to truly be!
Writer’s block is the worst! I can imagine it’s even more of a struggle when you have the pressure of such a large following too. Plus writing multiple cookbooks and being a new mom. That’s tough!
I love everything you said in this post and it’s inspiring that through all of your accomplishments, you’re able to stay true to yourself. At the end of the day, that’s what matters most!
My thirteen year old daughter just got braces and its been hard trying to find food for her lunch. Ive been making different flavoured parfaits almost everyday but its hard when they cant take ANYTHING with nuts, even almond butter. I was thinking about using sunflower seed butter. Do u think that would work? Ive made them all with fruit, coconut milk whip and chia puddings. The chai one was their fave, surprisingly. Thanks for the new recipe!!! Love your writing and your food :) Ur my inspiration Ang!
Hi Mandy,
I made this recipe with sunflower seed butter tonight, and everyone loved it! It definitely worked as a substitute for people with nut allergies.
Hi Angela:) I love your blog so much it’s literally changing my life! lol I’m not even into the whole blog thing, but I am on yours like everyday now looking at new recipes to try!! I have a request on a blog post from you, can you do more meal(breakfast/lunch/snack/dinner, doesn’t matter) ideas? You had a post about lunch ideas and I love that, I want more!! lol It’s fun to see what other people put together, especially with your FANTASTIC photography;)
what a beautiful post.
the words.
and pictures.
your book just came. it’s divine.
thank you:)
Thank you Nicole!