My Road To Health: Part VII

by Angela (Oh She Glows) on November 4, 2010

[For my entire Road To Health Series see these links: My Road To Health: Part 1, My Road To Health: Part II, My Road To Health: Part III, My Road To Health: Part IV, My Road To Health: Part V, My Road To Health: Part Vb, My Road To Health: Part VI]


My road to health is never over, even though I can now tell you that I have been free from disordered eating for a while now.

Each day is a journey, not just with our Road to Health, but with all aspects of our lives.

What will happen today? Will I be good to myself? Will I treat others with respect? Will I hit a pothole along the way and slip up? Will I tell myself nice things and stay positive? Will I let negative thoughts or anxiety prevent me from succeeding? Will I be a good friend, family member, or partner?

A new day is quite exciting if you stop and think about it. Not everyone has this chance.


The beauty of each day is that we have a chance to start fresh.

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For a long time, I didn’t believe this…at all. When I was deep into my disordered eating, no day was a fresh start for me.

It was simply one long, miserable journey that was going backwards and not forwards. With each day that I failed to take control of my own life, I crept back a few steps until I didn’t even know which way was the right direction.

Sometimes, when you fall into negative patterns for so long, you lose not only yourself, but your internal compass, that is supposed to guide you in the right direction. This internal compass, is also known as your heart or that little voice inside your head that tells you instinctively what you should do. Mine is always right.

Along the way, I stopped listening to my heart and my internal compass became a monotonous track of negative words and phrases.

You might be surprised to know that the #1 topic that I am emailed about pertains to disordered eating and the most frequent thing mentioned is binge eating. I have talked about binge eating several times in the past (parts: one, two, three) and I still believe that it is much more common than we believe and it is often an eating disorder that is swept under the rug and filled with great shame, much like bulimia.

For years, I couldn’t bring myself to even tell Eric that I struggled with binge eating at times. I could talk to him about the calorie restriction and over-exercising, but for some reason not binge eating. I was ashamed of myself and I was so scared that he was going to think less of me if I told him. Of course, that wasn’t the case. I was so scared for so many years to just talk about my struggles, but when I finally did I received support and understanding. Not once did I have someone turn their back on me.

Talking about it was the most freeing feeling in the world and it is always something I recommend to others in the same position. The secrecy, pain, and shame of an eating disorder creates this huge bubble of negativity in your life, but talking about it bursts the bubble and allows others to come inside to help. I saw a counsellor in university for a bit and I also started this blog and spoke openly about my struggles. Over time, I started to feel empowered and no longer like I was doomed by some negative fate.

Of course, this not only applies to those suffering from an eating disorder, but to most struggles in life.

The truth is, there is nothing to be ashamed of! We are human and we all have struggles in life. What we struggle with will vary by the individual, but we all struggle none the less.

The hardest part of my journey was admitting that I could claim happiness in my life.

For years, I believed that I was destined to be unhappy with myself and I thought that I would always struggle with food and weight until old age.

When you are struggling, the hardest part is always admitting to yourself that you deserve happiness. It is much easier to just believe that you don’t deserve happiness and remain stagnant in your life. Once you look yourself in the eye and admit that you deserve to be happy, you now must do something about it.

Doing something about it is the hard part, but it sure beats the alternative.


Each and every one of us has a special and unique light inside of us just waiting to be embraced.


My intention with this blog is to show you what makes me happy and then to encourage you to go find what makes YOU happy.  We all have a unique journey ahead of us and that is the beauty of life.

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[Sketchie recommends meditating sleeping in a box lid. That may also work. I think I shall try this tonight.]

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[email protected] November 4, 2010 at 9:28 pm

Reading about your journey is truly inspiring. It gives me the hope that I need to overcome all of my struggles :)


Stacey November 4, 2010 at 9:28 pm

Thanks for the post Angela. I’m pretty new to your blog so this is the first time I’ve EVER heard anything about binge eating, but I”m sitting here now in the Ah ha moment. In fact, I have been trying to control that all afternoon and been very frustrated with it. Your blog is exactly what I needed. Thank you.


Laughter-Loving Stacy November 4, 2010 at 9:42 pm

Fantastic! That’s exactly what I write about. We all deserve happiness in our lives. :)


Casey Thomas November 4, 2010 at 9:56 pm

Very heartfelt, gorgeous post Angela.

Thanks for sharing your journey. Binge eating truly is such a huge epidemic and we need more poeple being honest and open about it.



Andrea Bloomfield November 4, 2010 at 10:13 pm

Very inspiring. I have found myself in a rut lately with life throwing curveball after curveball. Your post leaves me with hope and anticipation for what wonderful things tomorrow brings. T


Camille @ La Bella Vita November 4, 2010 at 10:44 pm

Thank-you for your openness and honesty on the subject. It is a refreshing point of a view!


Jessica @ The Process of Healing November 4, 2010 at 10:47 pm

There are no words for how beautiful that post is :)


Mary (What's Cookin' with Mary) November 4, 2010 at 11:21 pm

Thank you for this post Ange :) -m


Kristy November 4, 2010 at 11:22 pm

Thankyou for your words of inspiration. I was following your post for a few Months and was inspired to adopt a healthy lifestyle, until then i had never heard of things like quinoa, cacao nibs, chia seeds or green monsters but really enjoyed all of it. unfortunatley i reverted back to my old ways in the last couple of Months and i miss how good i felt everyday. Reading your road to recovery has once again inspired me to make the change and realise that i haven’t failed, it was just a pot hole in my road. Thanks again!


Jackie November 4, 2010 at 11:27 pm

Thank you so much for writing this post. I still struggle everyday with self worth. I am doing so many positive things in my life including changing around my whole diet and being free of restrictions and calorie counting. The weight loss is sloooooow and it’s very frustrating at times but I must say I have tons more energy and feel wonderful. I am happy but I still have that voice in the back of my head saying if I were only x lbs skinnier. Hopefully on my road to health that little voice will eventually keep quiet and I will be truly happy with myself.


Jess November 4, 2010 at 11:54 pm

Your story is inspiring because you have come such a long way. Thanks so much for sharing.


Alice November 5, 2010 at 1:05 am

I am cyber-clapping you right now! You’re spot-on. It’s so true isn’t it – I feel so EMBARASSED about binge eating. Yet not so much about restricting and bulimia? Weird.

Lovely, honest, wise words Angela :)


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Christina November 5, 2010 at 5:57 am

Thank you so much for this post. It is as if I had said that because I have gone through the same for many years. The way out is hard but every step forward is a step towards a happier life…
Love Christina


kaila November 5, 2010 at 6:33 am

great post! maybe i missed it but did you already do your entry for part 7 of the food blogger contest?!?!?!?! i wanted to vote for ya!


Kristy November 5, 2010 at 6:52 am

I appreciate you and (VERY MUCH!) your blog! Even though I dont know you IRL, no matter what – without fail I open OSG and there is SOMETHING on every page that stimulates a positive emotions inside of me. Joy, Smiles, Comfort, Hope, Love…. <3 I truly am happy for you, it is wonderful to see someone living the life that so many of us work towards :-)


Jemma @ Celery and Cupcakes November 5, 2010 at 7:16 am

Loving this post!


Desi @ The Palate Peacemaker November 5, 2010 at 8:27 am

Angela, reading this post – like reading every one of your posts – makes me… well… glow. Someday, I’ll meet you and give you the biggest hug in the world in an effort to communicate just how much you’ve given to me. You’re my hero! :)


dyw November 5, 2010 at 8:40 am

Thank you so much for your honesty and gentle sprirt.


Karmen November 5, 2010 at 9:00 am

This is just what i needed to read. I have always battled with negative thoughts. At times they consume and control my life. I have good days and bad days. With age i have learned to focus on the good thoughts to weed out the negative. But lately i have been in a slump and it is draining. Thank you for your inspiring words.


jenn November 5, 2010 at 9:18 am

That was absolutely beautiful! I really needed that today!!


Laura November 5, 2010 at 9:29 am

Hey Ange!
I’ve been a reader for a while, but I’ve only commented a few times before. I just wanted to pop in and say *thank you* for not only writing about binge eating but also taking the time to blog every day, be positive, and share all your creative recipes! I’ve struggled with binge eating for a LONG time, but for the past year, I’ve finally been able to pull myself out and get control. I’m not perfect, but for the first time in a long time, I’m HAPPY! And it’s amazing. Your blog has been a huge part of the healing I’ve done to recover from binge eating. Not only have I read and re-read your posts on the topic, but I always feel inspired by your recipes–so now I love to cook! And loving to cook has given me a totally different (non-disordered) view of food. So thank you so much for sharing your life with the blogworld–you can’t even imagine what a difference it’s made for me! (and I know I’m not the only one).
Carry on, girl!


Christine November 5, 2010 at 10:29 am

Angela, I can’t tell you how much your kindness in sharing your story has helped me. Just this week, after 15 years (15 YEARS!) of struggling alone with binge eating and the shame and struggle that goes along with it, I went to see a therapist to start trying to work through it. And this post, along with the amazing, inspiring comments from others, inspired me to finally tell my boyfriend (who I have lived with and kept this from for 3 years) about my eating disorder. He was wonderful and supportive, and I know I am on a good path now! Thank you!


Sami November 5, 2010 at 10:35 am

again, you seem to know JUST what i need to hear. i DO deserve happiness :)

love you girl!



Corey @ the runner's cookie November 5, 2010 at 10:40 am

Beautiful post Angela – I know that me and so many others can relate to and appreciate your writing about disordered eating. You have come an amazingly far way and are such an inspiration to those still struggling. Thank you!


Amber K November 5, 2010 at 11:21 am

I think it is so sad that people are more okay with others having anorexia than those who have had problems with binge eating. It seems to be this huge shameful secret. You are so inspiring in that you are able to talk about your past and show how you have made a better future. And I know you have helped many people deal with their own disordered eating, including myself!


[email protected] November 5, 2010 at 11:51 am

Oh my goodness – I just love your Road to Health series, and the timing of this one is, like, divine intervention. Thank you for the words, the reinforcement, the EXAMPLE that you provide that it is possible to move forward into true happiness and health. It is so comforting to read the words of someone who has been there and makes me so excited about my own future free of disordered thoughts. It truly is a journey, isn’t it??


LizLivingVegan November 5, 2010 at 3:12 pm

I’m so glad you’ve been able to bring a topic like binge eating to life. I think you’re right, it’s almost easier to talk about calorie restriction and exercise-bulimia (not that it’s easy to talk about those, but you know what I mean) and I think the more binge eating gets talked about, the more help can be done. Thanks for posting about this!


Melanie November 5, 2010 at 4:43 pm

Awesome post. I’m currently writing a research essay at my university about how constructions of femininity lead to eating disorders. I thought my road to health was basically over, but writing/researching for this thesis has been so therapeutic and empowering. It’s like an extended epilogue to my story haha.


Nessy November 5, 2010 at 8:15 pm

A beautiful post. You continue to inspire me day in and day out. You are an amazing person. Thank you.


Allie (Nutty FlexitALLIEan) November 5, 2010 at 8:56 pm

I feel the same way about disclosing binge eating. I had trouble for long periods of time (and sometimes still do) and it’s so tough to share with others- because most people really don’t understand! Thanks for sharing your thoughts/experiences with everyone- it’s so therapeutic and comforting to know we’re not alone.


Marathon Bound Gal aka Grace November 6, 2010 at 2:17 pm

I love these posts. They make me smile and especially today as I will be running my first half marathon since Dec. 2005….woohoo! Thanks Angela for making my day!


Angie November 9, 2010 at 4:22 am

Thank you so much for this post. As a recovering anorexic and binge eater, I completely understand everything you write about. Your journey inspires me so much!!! It definitely helps to hear your experience as it helps me to be brave when I have those moments of depression and self doubt.


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